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No matter who u are ...
u can never despise me more than i despise myself....

Life...death...

People die every day...
Not cause they have done all they wanted to
or cause they planned to die...
They just die...
But not many lives before that...
We are all so stuck up preparing for life tat we never live actually...
Take a moment.. take a deep breath...
Tis is ur life ..tis moment tis very moment.. Savour it..
Life is beautiful :)
I am not scared to die..
Not that i look forward to it any more
Still I am not scared to die....
I still am yet to figure death out...
one moment u are there and other u just are not anymore...
everything u dreamt of thought of..
all that u di..
all that u were planning to do..
the good the bad the ....
the beautiful moments, the good memories, the hurt the pain..all gone..
Death is one shit thing :)

 

 

painkili...

Premam ennum painkili ayirunnu...
painkili ille enthu premam :) ille ake ullathu jada mathram :)
Interesting that me of all people are falling for the indian ideology of husband and wife :)
athum painkiliyum enthu bandham ennu vechal arkariyam :)
Still love has been and always will remain a bit cheesy...:)

hmm....

One puff...

I know right now one puff can make it all right...
thats all thats needed just a drag...
my brain has already started thinkin of ways to get one...
Shit i need a drag...
Like hell i need one...
Its one thing I can afford considering that i am actin soo much for the world...
For pretending i care...
I need my 5 mins witha  puff....

Socities influence on me..

as much as i wld want to fight the fact...i am stil very much a human and ahare many weaknesses with them

1. Flattery still works...only in the face that i am much more intelligent and organized than my most other frnds..in all rest i just smirk at the best
2. i am still controlled by my dicks ego..cant ctand it if any girl i mak a move pon says no to me
3.i still have feelings..not always..just fleeting glimpses mostly..still they are there...

need to wrk on removin these aswell

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Its soo hard to feel...
Its much more easy to be just busy....
:(

Bucket List...

Initially i thought i will scrape em off other peoples bucket list...thats howq lazy I am :)
But then.....

1. Live on the street for a week, no wallet, no cell phone.
2. Learn to play guitar.
3. Hit one concert in Germany
4. drive anything with more than 16 wheels
5. find something that can scare the shit out of me..
6. make my girl laugh..laugh out loud..
7. Publish a book..atleast send one to a publisher
8.Drive above 300kph
9.Close the only non closed chapter
10.Swimming
11. Horse riding
12.Any martial arts
13. Scuba diving
14. bungee jumping
15. Para gliding/sailing
16 . ride the surf
17.row boat across sea

Hope...

When i was in engineerinf 4rd sem if some one had told me i will sleep with soo many girls i would have killed him
if some one had told me i will b living happily with a girl i would have died....
but here i am soo many girls later living happily wiht my girl...
Still believing that this is the one this is the onyl one for ever....
What does that make me..
a complete idiot na..:)

We have no clue what tomorrow has for us...
Still we dream we hope we plan ..
i guess thats what makes us us....

I pity god...
he has no hopes ..no dreams.. cause he is all powerfull...
:)
whats life with out hopes wishes....hpw ever fragile they may be..

Suffocation..

For the first time ever i felt suffocated in my cubicle...
I think it was always suffocating.. just tat i never realised it soo far....
Its a dead end Job...
It is a pointless job
I love it.. but no point...

Dicks...

Observe a guy closely and u will realise that he is nothing but a dick...
evry single action of his ..his smile his anger his pride his hurts ...
Every Single breath of his every single action of his is guided by the one organ of his...
The man who has control over his dick.. the one who has accepted the fact that he is nothing but a dick and then goes to master his dick dies in a web f deception masterfully woven by his dick..

Th very same way a woman is nothing but a womb...
her every action is controlled by one....

Interesting are the possibilities that this creates..

The best women.. the ones naturally selected by nature to go ahead and create more and more progenies gets married to guys who are weak..guys who stay back at home guys who will not be having too much testosterones guys who will not run away for freedom  for fihts...but ends up having affairs wiht guys who are real dicks:)

which makes the best women the most decpetive and the best men the most simpletons..:)

Sad story of our lives is we are mainy a man controlled world...there is no scope till we get back to the world wher women were all powerfull where they were in charge :):)

Some habbits just dont die...

Naah i am nt talking abt the cigarette but thats there in my hand...
just about me....
even after countless arguments with myself about the complete stupidity and meaninglessness of human existence in general and mine in very particular  i still cant always fight the urge to note down my thoughts once in a while here and there:)
Life on a whole is beautiful now:)
Still not quite thee man i was hoping to be but way ahead of the one i was...
people who knew me from college days may think i have lost my attitude...my edge cause i am no longer the carefree asshole i was who didn't give a fck abt anything ..
I have come to understand tat its easy to nt care abt anything ..or any one..
the hard part is to actually care abt some one..or something..

To look life in the face and say yeah i know my actions are not going to be echoed in eternity...
yeah i know i am just decaying organic material...
yeah i know i am not unique...
But even then for me life matters...
Life is worth living..
Life is worth all the shit :)
and my cig gt over soo... good night :)

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Achu